August 10, 2009
Begin
I opened this blog months ago but I simply have not been able to write anything. Several reasons why, I believe. Probably first and foremost, fear of rejection. Fear of who? Fear of whom? Ultimately, fear of me.
The fears were installed by others and I continue to carry them and the accompanying scars. Repeating certain behaviors yet, improving others. I guess that’s progress. Drones on forever and a day. *sigh*
Fear of abandonment would be the second biggest fear for me. Maybe in time I can share some of the reasons. Not now though. Can’t open that can of worms except in pdoc office at present. Maybe I will find the courage to share at some point in time. I’m just not going to worry about that right now.
That’s enough for now. I may have to get used to this.
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