August 13, 2009
Broken
Have you ever known someone so well that you can see/hear/feel their life force? You instinctively know their ebb and flow. Without a word, you can just tell when they’re good and when they’re not.
Sometimes, every breath they take, you wonder if there’s going to be another. Not because they are physically ill, but because life has beat them down. Like crop circles, beat flat. The reasons why will make you nauseous.
It tears my loving heart into shreds. I want so very, very much to lift the pain and ease the agony. I cannot. No matter how much we wish for things to be different, it is not.
Ah, and selfish me. I want all I can get, for as long as I can get it. My nose stings with the impending tears that well in my eyes when something hurts me so deeply. I want to cry for what I cannot do and what I cannot have.
But cry? I will not. Put on a good front! That’s my public face. Inside, I taken a running start and I cannot stop.
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