Dancing In My Heart…Still

Tonight, I looked into the fire and saw flames licking across the logs. I wanted that firelight to be you. I wanted your intensity next to me to embrace the orange hot embers of you.

Me, remembering  when you reached out, and so caressed my soul. You caught my wind and held me close. I never saw you, I never touched your face but I didn’t need to, you had my heart. You had taken my breath.

Still…dancing the fire in my heart.

Fury

The fury and the rage…

Sudden with random tears

Briefly hot and spent

Leaving horror and fear

No voice did moan

Not an utterance was heard

Only the intake of air…

Silence still rules


Uncle Cuc

It was him
smelling of Old Spice.
It was him
stinking of just smoked cigarettes.
It was him
tasting bitter from cheap ass whiskey.
Saying C’mon little honey,
nobody home right now.
Let your Uncle Cuc
give you some sweet big sugar.
It was him,
It was him again and again.

Another World

Another World

Let’s run shoulder to shoulder

Our cadenced rhythm together.

Ocean waves become our pace

Moving us forward, gracefully along.

Seagulls squawk for us to fly

We are steady as she goes,

Steady as she goes.

Beads of sweat drip from our brow

Lapped over time at the water’s edge.

The salty wind is at our face

Beautifully weathering our kindred souls.

We step up our pace

Foot for foot

Breath for breath

I stand for you

And you for me.

Now What?

Now What?

Hear me,

Hear me.

I wail for you.

My heart is broken,

My love pieces fall in slow motion

I see every sliver,

I see every color.

Slowly they fall,

The pieces of my heart.

I hear them land.

Fractured by anger

On empty words wet with tears.

You hurt,

I hurt,

Now what?

I Wail

I wail.

I look to the sky and wail

Exposing my throat

The pale, vigrx plus results tender white skin

Left wide open

To the dangers within.

None more dangerous,

None more cunning.

Nothing heard,

Not even the gurgle.

Forever, She Will Be My Child

Forever, She Will Be My Child


Today is the day. The day my sweet child died.
It was in the wee hours of the morning, when they told me she was gone.
Just like that, my beautiful daughter was taken from me, absent of life, never to return.
Gone were all the hopes and dreams.Grief?
Profoundly unbearable, unimaginable, inconceivable and unspeakable.
And I’m supposed to want to live after that? You just don’t know,
You cannot imagine how such an intense shock can take you to the floor on your suddenly numb knees.
If you’ve experienced it, then you know. If you’ve never experienced it, I hope you never do.
A parent is not supposed to bury their own flesh and blood.
Pain and confusion remain for what I never dreamt would be.
There is absolutely nothing capable of erasing the burden of the forever empty places in my heart *sigh*.

I kept precious and special things that bring me wonderful memories and a sense of peace.
But some days, they only bring tears. Today is a tearful day.
This is the day my only child died.

HURT BY PROXY


I wasn’t part of it

Or so I thought.

I only watched from the edges.

How did this happen?

Why am I hurt?

Ever the cheerleader,

Offering support

With a forced smile.

And a needy heart.

That long ago neglect

Haunts me, trips me.

Ugly insecurities

Turning friendships

Into pillars of salt.

Here I Am

Here I Am

I stepped out onto the ledge

And even though the air was hot and hard to breathe

It cooled the sweat on my skin.

My life path has brought me here

And as I slowly turned around

I saw your silhouette in the shadows.

I watched you as you watched me

The conversation took place

And never a word was spoken.

Voiceless

Voiceless

This has come out of the blue

I knew not, I was looking for you.

My sight was focused,

My mission purposed.

Seeking collaboration

Never suspecting the notion

That an unknown talisman

Would shatter my bastion.

With expressions of grace,

Having no choice but to embrace

Your intensity and freshness

Exposing and breathless.

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